awakening
Yes, awakening. I’m not just using this term because I like to think I’m a creative faggot who posts their mildly interesting dreams on this website for your viewing pleasure, but because I honestly just had an epiphany. I feel like I have literally opened my eyes to something big for me, personally, and this is what I’ve gathered.
We all have the ability to start over. Turn over a new leaf, a fresh clean slate, or however the fuck you’d like to describe it. I have realized that I’ve been living my life with a tenacious desire to put myself down. Nothing I do is ever quite right, always room for adjustment. (Granted, I am my fathers daughter, which naturally makes me somewhat of an idealist.) But herein lies the problem: I am truly so goddamn tired of treating myself this way.
I am now going to stop caring about the mistakes I’ve made or the ones I’m bound to make in the future. I will learn to not expect so much, when people only want to give so little. And last but not least, I am going to calm the fuck down, because life is way too short to be obsessing over the painfully minuscule things that always tend to put us down.
